Everyone’s out to get my damn money June 26, 2006

I got a new phone from Verizon last week after standing in line for over an hour and a half. They told me to stop using my car charger because it fries the battery. It's funny how they never tell you that when they sell you the damn thing huh? Anyway, brand new phone and I ended up buying a new battery b/c mine was starting to act like it was low…it still won't work. I've charged it all night and after having it all all day for just one day, it's dead. Completely. Why the hell do they get away with this?

I'm just in a pissy mood today. And I've caught a cold.

You’re the only one who knows June 21, 2006

I’ve been home for…3 days and I already feel like I need another vacation. I’m looking forward to going back to school and even working a no-so-great paying job again. Every day in this office makes me want to blow my head off.

I’ve become so numb to people’s feelings that I can’t even show sympathy anymore. So many of our patients are suicidal, can’t pay their bills, terminally ill or something else and they always want to talk about these things to me. I don’t know if they’re trying to make me feel sorry for them but I just try to be professional, say I understand and try to get off the phone/out of the conversation as quickly as possible. I’ve realized that I just can’t extend myself to everyone and I feel like shit for it. I think it’s a good thing that I decided to throw out the idea of being a couselor.

It’s entirely too rare for people to do what they say they will do in my life. But when it happens, it’s awesome!

I’ve completely ruined my diet and exercise routine. I don’t have the energy or the will to go to the gym and I’m addicted to french fries. I crave them all the time!!! If something doesn’t change with me I’m really afraid that everything is going to go downhill. I’m so unhappy when I look in the mirror but I keep going back and forth with feeling like I can and want to do something about it. I’m unhappy in my body and occasionally it occurs to me how destructive that is to my mind.

This to be the dumbest movie ever made: The Little Man. I wish the Wayans Brothers would stop torturing us with their movies.

Swimming in hurricaines June 19, 2006

The day after we got to the beach The Weather Channel started reporting that a tropical storm was headed right for us. Mom, Nathan and I walked on the beach when the storm hit like a bunch of crazy people waving at the reporters from Weather.com and I got blown into the ocean. So much for my dad’s waterproof raincoat!

A sea turtle buried her eggs right outside our condo…the day before the storm hit. Dad said that during the night, the tide was almost up to our back door. I really hope they survived.

On this trip there was serious talk of moving…possibly across the country. I need that to happen more than anything right now!

BRB June 5, 2006

Yay! June 5, 2006

Everyone has been telling me that losing weight takes time and I know that’s true but when you put a lot of time and work into sweating all over the gym’s equipment, you want to see results.

I just comfortably fit into a skirt that I haven’t really been able to wear in a year! Go me!

It’s a funny thing June 1, 2006

Who wants a Jesus Pan? Click that because it’s awesome!

Pictures from my recent Mat Kearney experiece are here. Go say “ew” at how sweaty he was.

I’ve been to the tanning bed 4 times since last week and I’m so pale that it has barely made a difference. That’s really sad. I don’t care so much about being tan but it’s time for shorts and I don’t want to scare anyone. I just want to feel comfortable if I have to wear shorts.

I’ve been trying to push myself harder at the gym. I ran faster for 25 minutes on the elliptical and with some advice I changed the elevation and my knees didn’t hurt. It could have just been a great day but it’s a start. I just need to find something else to do to at least get an hour of cardio in if I can’t run for an hour. It if wasn’t so miserable outside I would go hiking or start riding my bike again but with the humidity I basically said “screw that.”

I just found a dollar and a fortune that says, “Time is precious, but truth is more precious than time.” in my back pocket. I have no idea when the last time I wore these jeans was. Why couldn’t it have been $20?

The best news I’ve gotten all year: I got pretty good seats to see the Counting Crows in Nashville on August 21st for my birthday!!! I’ve been hoping for this since I was 16. I will probably be throw out for crying hysterically and trying to climb on stage to hug Adam Duritz.