We’ve had family in from Washington all week. They left yesterday morning and it’s so lonely after having 10+ people crowded around the dinner table every night. I really miss them. I only had to work until noon so we’ve been out doing stuff every day. It’s so hard to get settled back down into routine.
Nathan and I are talking about moving again even though it probably won’t happen. He’s taking a trip and working a crappy job and when I go back to school this fall I’ll be working a crappy job too. I really doubt that we will be able to afford anything. It’s really depressing me. I know that it’s probably better to take it easy while I still have my parents and their support but I want to get out of Tennessee. I feel stuck here no matter what I do or accomplish. I want to feel like I can move and be okay. The more that I depend on my parents the worse it’s going to be when I don’t have them to depend on. But Nathan just seems to want to stick with where we are. I feel like it’s time to grow up but I don’t feel that we’ll be able to do that as a couple for a very long time.
