I’ve been thinking more and more about what I’m going to do with the rest of my life and trying to decide what is going to make me happy. Next month I start a 2-year degree to become a court reporter but is that going to be enough? Will that make me happy? On the way to work another thought popped into my head: law school?
My problem is that I’m terrified that I’m not smart enough for anything. I get lazy and I start slipping even when I’m interested in something. I wonder if it’s even possible to make myself learn and study.
I’m very interested in the thought of studying law. I’m not sure that I could ever be an attorney but there are other options. I want to be happy, have an interesting job and be financially secure and that’s the first time I’ve thought of a career and not thought, “I’m not smart enough and I can’t work that hard.”
I feel like complete shit for waiting so long inbetween high school and college, not taking high school seriously and wasting everyone’s time.
Either way, classes start August 28th and I’ll be there.
Things I need to get done before then:
!!! pay off my credit cards
!! get my ass in to fill out paperwork
! put in a few applications so that I won’t be stuck without a job
