I’ve been thinking more and more about what I’m going to do with the rest of my life and trying to decide what is going to make me happy. Next month I start a 2-year degree to become a court reporter but is that going to be enough? Will that make me happy? On the way to work another thought popped into my head: law school?
My problem is that I’m terrified that I’m not smart enough for anything. I get lazy and I start slipping even when I’m interested in something. I wonder if it’s even possible to make myself learn and study.
I’m very interested in the thought of studying law. I’m not sure that I could ever be an attorney but there are other options. I want to be happy, have an interesting job and be financially secure and that’s the first time I’ve thought of a career and not thought, “I’m not smart enough and I can’t work that hard.”
I feel like complete shit for waiting so long inbetween high school and college, not taking high school seriously and wasting everyone’s time.
Either way, classes start August 28th and I’ll be there.
Things I need to get done before then:
!!! pay off my credit cards
!! get my ass in to fill out paperwork
! put in a few applications so that I won’t be stuck without a job
but you ARE smart enough. Everyone doubts themselves but trust me you ARE smart enough.
Studying.. I have a terrible time of that as well. I never studied a day in my life until I hit college and it was super hard for me. I’d come home and just want to curl up and go to sleep but then I’d force myself to do the work. It was a vicious cycle but always remember that the challenges you face will have a worthwhile outcome.
Now before I submit this i will say once again: you ARE smart enough!
Good luck with everything, I have to start doing all this fun stuff soon too.
You could start out with as a paralegal. They make pretty good money and you get mucho experience.
I butchered that comment, basically going to school to become a paralegal would be a good start.